let's face it - I am a terrible "selfie-taker." I am just not good at it. i cant figure out which way to look, so I either look distracted, confused - or like someone just yelled my name and looked right at the time of the pic. I abhor seeing my double chin that sometimes creeps up based on head position - just not my thing. Now- some of you girls- look professional in these pics - right angle, right filter - boom ! you got it -
But sometimes - what i really think is hard about taking a selfie- is just looking back at yourself - is that weird ? We all have an idea of "ourself" -- it can be true or untrue.
No different than thinking your makeup & hair are still looking "covergirl" - the same as when you walked out the door earlier that morning - until you don't recognize yourself in the mirror at work at 4 pm ? where did the mascara go ? how come i look like i have raccoon eyes ? The hair is no longer tame - Gone Wild -
So what about when we do take an inventory of our "self"? A true, hard, critical look at who we are - where are our flaws? Where do we need work ? How do others see us (good question- but hard to put out there sometimes)? There is no filter here - or soft focus to make it all seem perfect - just a long, good look at where can I be better ? Where does God want to grow me ?
Am i unhappy with what I am doing - but continuing out of habit and others' expectations of me ?
Am i saying "yes" to too much and feel scattered, hurried, and pulled - stealing my Joy?
Am i parenting from a place of presence - fully - or am i distracted - caught up in unnecessary drama ?
Am i intentional with those that i love the most ? Do they know how fiercely i adore and love them ?
Am i being a good steward of the material blessings God has given to me ?
Am i anxious more than i am not ? Have i let fear overshadow reality and my peace ?
Am i treating my body well enough to last me - and to keep me active ? Do i take the time for myself that i need to be abetter mother, wife, and friend?
Am i needing healing from old wounds - that are still causing me heartache ?
Am i putting off a dream due to self-doubt or because it just seems to "BIG"?
God wants to be invited in to what you see - He sees you, too - just the way you are - loves you the same
This post isn't meant to stress you out or to make you feel inadequate - or even to give you one more thing on your never-ending to do list - its more about taking the time to take a "selfie" - to check- in with yourself - and with your Heavenly Father - to see if there is any where He wants to provide healing - freedom - peace - love - to you -
But we have to take the time to slow down - and evaluate - not just keep running the same track - doing the same old motions that are preventing us for living out His "immeasurably more" that He has for us and our families-
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than we all ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work in us."
so - as hard as it may seem - i challenge you to sit down with yourself - be honest with yourself - and evaluate with no filters - to see where God has more for you -
a mid-thirties mom and wife seeking truth, peace and joy in my daily life. mom to two wild, snuggly, and fierce boys - and wife to my best friend and bearded man of my dreams. My joys are giving and receiving gifts (its my love language- not materialistic) - pushing my limits and extinguishing my stress in the workout room- serving others in the medical profession and in my community of friends . i love doing life with others - the phone calls on way to work, the couch discussions, the annual camping trips - My community of friends would tell you I am as authentic and outspoken as you can get - sometimes you can find my husband hiding behind a pillow! My parents thought I would always be a lawyer- I have a strong passion to get the last word - I just cant walk away. Marriage, Motherhood, and my walk with the Lord continue to push me, shape me, and change me. I pray this blog will bless just ONE - and the point to the ONE-